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Crossing Picket Lines, Cleaning House

November 7th, 2007

It’s always so busy now that there’s hardly the time to blog. Which makes me wonder what the hell I was doing with my time a few years ago that all I did was blog.

On Saturday, I finished BECAUSE, my 8 week multi-generational writing/performance workshop for women of color that I facilitate with an Artist-in-Residence Grant from the city. I was really proud of all 18 of my participants. They produced unique and amazing work. Sometimes I feel like I haven’t done anything remarkable with my life. But when I think about the women that have been in my workshop, I feel very proud that I’ve had some impact on someone else.


Speaking of queer women of color… ha! WTF is with Tila Tequila and why can’t I stop watching her train wreck of a show?

I’m so horrified but glued to this woman and her thin personality. I admire her business prowess but it confuses me. Is the only way a woman can get ahead from nothing is by posing in her bikini? What about people like me? My mother would never let me have my own paysite and pose in a bikini! Tila has an unfair advantage! Oprah and Martha Stewart never had to get to their skivvies. Perhaps that is some hope.

I wrote a sketch about Tila Tequila for the CBS showcase. It’s a tough process. They have us write sketches and only 12 or so get used in the show. And it’s been a few years since I’ve written sketches, let alone stage material for more than one performer! They estimate that 300 sketches are pitched. I think it’s more like 100. Anyway. So I’ve only written this one Tila Tequila sketch and I was pretty proud of how it turned out. And it’s amazing that a lot of my solo performer skills have translated ok to the sketch world. I was thinking since they are such tough cookies they wouldn’t be into my Tila sketch but they actually thought it was pretty funny. I’m thinking it may not get used in January since her career will probably crash out by then and so will the buzz from her show. But I had a good time writing it. And now I need to churn out a dozen more.

It’s pretty crazy going over to CBS with the big writer’s strike. They are picketing all the networks. And as a SAG member we are encouraged to march with them in solidarity. It’s a pretty bad time now for me to be getting this CBS showcase, because if things don’t clear up, there won’t be any shows to audition for when this is all over. I read that agents are already cutting down on staff and budgets and I can see that this is just beginning to really impact the economy nationally. Yay for horrible timing.

I always support people on strike. When the supermarkets were on strikes, I’d bring them food and water. But I’ve never had to cross a picket line, and in my car at that. I think the picketing writers were really confused at how I honked for them but also almost ran them over to get into the CBS lot.

So I’m really just getting ready for my show in SF this week. Cleaning out years of crap from the apartment. Listening to self help tapes. Thinking up sketch ideas. Trying to take over the world. Same shit as usual.

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“What just got thrown at my head?!? Oh. It’s a bone.”

October 1st, 2007

Last week I was feeling disgruntled for all the paperwork that seems to go into keeping me alive. On a quiet and lonely Saturday night, I was too exhausted to go out and enjoy the evening, and had too much work to finish to move.

Then I open my mail to find I got approved for a grant that will help me pay for a web designer, arts writer, and booking assistant for the next few months.

It was a very sweet moment to have. Alone in my apartment. On a Saturday night on an empty and growling stomach. Holding that acceptance letter.

I wrote this grant during my existential crisis this past summer. I recall it took me a whole week of moaning and groaning and a cup of tears to finish. I even drove to the airport post office to get it in by the postmark deadline.

By corporate standards it’s a small amount I will receive, but it will do me so much good. I am not complaining at all. It’s the absolute best investment I will make. And finally, I see the possibility of being a balanced artist again.

So if anyone is interested…I am hiring a booking assistant (preferably with experience in booking live theater) and an arts writer/publicist who can help sass up the writing on my website and marketing materials. There is pay! Send your resumes!

One of my students Saturday said, “Kristina I was reading your blog. It’s so interesting to see how you’ve progressed over time.”

Indeed. A few years ago I contemplated selling my underwear over the internet. I’d wake up every morning panicked and discouraged. It sucked.

Now I can take care of myself. And I bring in others to help me because there is so much abundance to manage. And it’s a great feeling.

Thank you.

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My Empire is Coming.

April 11th, 2007

I got into Chicago from Philly this morning after staying up all night. Sleepwalked to a cab, got dropped off at Anida’s at 7am and passed out for a few hours on her couch.

Now I’m at a cafe and already gearing up for going home. This Friday I’m finally home! Tomorrow I do excerpts of my work at DePaul and show some stuff on DVD. And also while out here I’ll be checking out some male strip clubs for a travel article for Playgirl. We are going to a place called “The Lucky Horseshoe” tomorrow– it’s free to get in and features tons of hot male strippers.

I make a living talking about being crazy and looking and writing about dong. It’s a wonderful and funny life. While other people are trading stocks and making companies merge, I am on Anida’s couch on my cell phone asking club owners, “So are the guys all naked or do they wear thongs?”

So what was great about the three day stint in Philly was I got to work with all these amazing artists that I normally don’t get the chance to work with (especially since I work solo so much of the time). It was incredible. We worked together for 24 hours and created a full length show. A GOOD SHOW, in that time. We will put up again in June in New York.

I realized so much that I want to change about my life as an artist after having the inspiring experience last weekend of creating work for the fun of it.

* I need to create more. I need to find more time to do my work and work out creatively. Not just creating huge big projects to tour and “sell” but small stuff for myself and my own creative growth.
* I need to extricate myself from so many discussions about the “business” or “politics” of the art world. A few conversations are ok. But after a while, talking about it at length is draining and unfun. And somebody is always unsatisfied with someone else in the art world. So no need blabbing about it at length.
* I need to “diversify my portfolio” as an artist. Have a bigger arsenal of things that I can do as an artist and human being. This means taking more classes in different arenas, reading more books, and getting better at doing different things.
* I need to find more time for me and more time for my friends. Rewards are great.

I’ve decided that when I am back in LA I’m going to reward myself with morning bike rides to the beach, a facial and massage, and spend some days doing nothing but watching TV and crafting. My friend Traci and I were even talking about taking a pole dance class together!

The free time isn’t going to last too long. And it seems I don’t have much of it. I have some TV show pitches to follow up with, shows in LA and NY to put up, more grants to write, and my site is going in for a massive redesign.

But…It’s so important as artists to remember the importance of making a life, not just a living.

BALANCE. BALANCE. BALANCE.

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