July 26th, 2007 → Leave a comment
According to Wikipedia and my friend Bangbay, I am in my Saturn’s Return which would explain all this heavy life crisis stuff I’ve been going through in the last two weeks.
The Saturn Return is an astrological phenomenon that occurs in a person’s life at approximately 27–30 years of age and again around the age of 58–60, with the third and usually final occurrence around 86-88. The planet Saturn takes approximately 29.5 years to orbit the Sun; when it returns to the exact degree along the ecliptic it occupied at the time of a person’s birth this is referred to as their “Saturn Return”.
Saturn is symbolically/astrologically associated with time, challenge, fear, doubt, confusion, difficulty, seriousness, heaviness, and hard lessons, among other more positive things such as structure, significance, accomplishment, reflection, power, prestige, maturity, and order – this is why astrologers believe that the thirtieth birthday is such a major rite of passage and is considered by many astrologers to mark the “true beginning” of adulthood, self-evaluation, independence, responsibility, ambition, and full maturation.
Anyway, I’m in the midst of making some big life changes, but not “serious” enough that anyone needs to call 911. I never got to travel the world when I finished college or teach English in Japan because, well, my parents wouldn’t let me. Grumble. Grumble. (But somehow I managed to become a crazy performance artist who pulls stuff out of her puppet gaggee in public.) Go figure. And I’ve always regretted not knowing what life really had in store for me and what life was like beyond LA. I know I travel a lot now for work, but it can be kind of stressful, and for never a long enough time that I can really make a good reflection about my life ahead.
I really feel that I need to experience something bigger than art. To change my environment. It’s the perfect time in my life to do something like this because I don’t have kids, I’m still single, and my work doesn’t really require that I stay in one place.
I was going to go to a Buddhist monastery near San Diego for a weekend retreat but I was unable to get out of a workshop that I am supposed to lead here that weekend. URGH! So now… this bigger change looms up ahead.
And that’s all I can tell you about that. I’ve kind of mapped out what this change will be, but I am not going to tell anyone publicly. It is after all, Los Angeles, and good reveals are best left for the good premieres. And the magic of Hollywood is all about keeping people guessing.
But I welcome your guesses and suggestions on my new life change.
Anyway, I decided to put one of these obnoxious voice message recordings on my myspace page as an attempt to become a young teenage cyborg. Leave me a message!
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